Reflections: #Motherhood

Dear Baby, here beneath my heart,

I thought that you might come today

the timing just seemed right

But the stars are out

and the moon is high

and sheepishly I wonder why

I try to arrange the plans of God

For now I know

you will not come

until the One who holds eternity

rustles your soft cocoon and

whispers in tones that I will not hear,

It's time, precious gift,

Now its time

You looked so amazing, smiles so angelic 

Fingers and feet so small yet so sweet

You looked so small and fragile 

You smile as you sleep and we wonder at the contents of your dreams

Dreamy eyes and beautiful yawns

Babies are amazing they bring everything in perspective and make you relinquish 

what you thought was important 

As your hand recoils around my index finger and holds so firmly

Refusing to let go of my finger I wonder at what stirs in your heart

We try different types of formula milk

Until we establish the one you like

As I delicately dry you after a bath and massage your small body

I marvel at how wondrous God created us, life in all it’s fullness 

After dressing you, 

You doze off and sleep so peacefully 

The beautiful smiles are back once again

It’s like what you are seeing in your dreams is so amazingly beautiful as you are

Forever grateful to have you in my arms

I put you in your bed to sleep

And I try to catch some sleep because I know we might be awake together almost the whole night

I think to myself Motherhood is not as easy though it’s very fulfilling 

As mothers we learn from strength we didn’t know we had and from fears we never perceived they existed

The love in Motherhood burns from the heart and endeavours to bond and inspire our  surroundings

by Mary Mwithiga